Weight loss...

So i am trying to loose weight like i have been trying to do since i had lilly back in 2008. I was 260 before i gave birth to her in january and after giving birth to her i weighed 230. Now i am at 175. I am still not happy with this weight. I plan to be at my goal by my wedding day. Which my goal is 130 or 140... I think its within reach but i need to work on myself. I need to stop giving my self chance to not go work out or looking at food and go its just one cookie every five minuets... yeah i eat a lot because of stress... Stress makes me eat. I need to go to the gym or go out running when i am stressed not sit there and eat like a fat ass. I hate looking in the mirror its so hard to even wear clothes because in know people are staring and think i look like a huge whale. Or at least i think thats what they are doing. So my goal is 130 but my realistic goal is 140. Both are within reach and i will reach one of them by my wedding day which is July 9th. So wish me lucky and i will weekly update you guys on my weight loss..

Long time

Okay so its been a long time since i lasted posted. Two years ago... Yes i said it two years. I have grown a lot since then. Lilly is now three years old and i am looking forward to following my dreams. Sometimes you put your dreams on hold for whatever lame reason or good reason or well any reason for that matter. Mine was a stupid and silly and childish reason. You shouldn't ever let any one or anything run your life. I just want to follow my dreams and i don't care what anyone thinks about it. Well maybe i am lying. I kind of do care what some people think. I am not really saying out loud right now what my dream is. But believe me its going to happen and nothing will stand in my way. I know that sometimes i go fourth to start something and i do not finish it. But this time its going to happen because i am mentally prepared for it. I am just sick of people thinking i am stupid and cant do anything. I am very smart and i can do whatever i set my mind too. I have so much to do and want to do before i die. I am really just sick of people doubting me. I am sick of people walking all over me too. Its time for me to take a chance. So every day now i will try and write an update on how i am doing with my weight loss and my goals. So stay tuned...