Dreams

So I haven't been updating you guys. Heres what happened in my dreams last night.

I was in this huge hotel and I was getting a room. They gave me a key and told me it was the 15th floor room 45. I was like ummm okay. So I started walking up the stairs and when I got to my room and I opened the door I walked out onto a beach. I was so confused but I went out on the beach and I swear I could feel the sand and smell everything about it. All of a sudden I was in my bathing suit... Before I was wearing jeans and a sweater because it was snowing outside. After I was out on the beach for what seemed like days. I walked back to the door and opened it and then I was inside my hotel room. I ordered room service and then I woke up.... Wow.... Let me tell you I have weird dreams...

Dreams of youtubers

Okay so last night I had this dream that I met FunnyMeNow (Matt) and RyanAustinTv (Ryan). We met in a walmart they were both buying nerf guns and I was looking for make-up which apparently in my dream walmart stopped carrying it. So we were walking for what seemed like forever and started filming a video called walmart is nuts... FunnyMeNow then uploaded it onto youtube and it became viral in like 5seconds. Thats all I remember... Crazy right?

Dreams...

Last night I could even remember my dreams. But I am sure they were nuts haha. Stay tuned for my dream update in the morning when I awake.

First dream post

Okay so last night I had the craziest of dreams. Now right now I am sick which means I have crazy vivid dreams that no one seems to understand. But last nights dream was just nuts. One part nightmare two parts weird. So how it started is I was at this mall and I was walking around shopping and then this robot was trying to shoot at me and BAM! I was now in a school. Yes I went from a mall to a school... But any way, when I was at the school I was trying to get out because these robot aliens were chasing me. I finally was able to get out. Then there was this huge hill and I had to roll down it and when I did that I was like I need to hide. So where did I hide a river! Of course that's where everyone goes to hide when they are being chased by alien robots. So at the river I met this family who was visiting and wanted to know where to find a mountain. I told them I had no idea and that's where the dream ended. Yes I told you it was going to be crazy. Stay tuned to more dreams with me.......

Weight loss...

So i am trying to loose weight like i have been trying to do since i had lilly back in 2008. I was 260 before i gave birth to her in january and after giving birth to her i weighed 230. Now i am at 175. I am still not happy with this weight. I plan to be at my goal by my wedding day. Which my goal is 130 or 140... I think its within reach but i need to work on myself. I need to stop giving my self chance to not go work out or looking at food and go its just one cookie every five minuets... yeah i eat a lot because of stress... Stress makes me eat. I need to go to the gym or go out running when i am stressed not sit there and eat like a fat ass. I hate looking in the mirror its so hard to even wear clothes because in know people are staring and think i look like a huge whale. Or at least i think thats what they are doing. So my goal is 130 but my realistic goal is 140. Both are within reach and i will reach one of them by my wedding day which is July 9th. So wish me lucky and i will weekly update you guys on my weight loss..

Long time

Okay so its been a long time since i lasted posted. Two years ago... Yes i said it two years. I have grown a lot since then. Lilly is now three years old and i am looking forward to following my dreams. Sometimes you put your dreams on hold for whatever lame reason or good reason or well any reason for that matter. Mine was a stupid and silly and childish reason. You shouldn't ever let any one or anything run your life. I just want to follow my dreams and i don't care what anyone thinks about it. Well maybe i am lying. I kind of do care what some people think. I am not really saying out loud right now what my dream is. But believe me its going to happen and nothing will stand in my way. I know that sometimes i go fourth to start something and i do not finish it. But this time its going to happen because i am mentally prepared for it. I am just sick of people thinking i am stupid and cant do anything. I am very smart and i can do whatever i set my mind too. I have so much to do and want to do before i die. I am really just sick of people doubting me. I am sick of people walking all over me too. Its time for me to take a chance. So every day now i will try and write an update on how i am doing with my weight loss and my goals. So stay tuned...

Oh look i am back

So i dont even know how many days since my last post but oh well that doesnt matter lol But life has been crazy being a mom means i dont have much time right now and with not knowing if i am staying where i live or going to my moms or going to barrys dads i dont know... Whats going on it my life. All i know is i have a job interview tomorrow at kroger... Barrys job with his company ends on friday but he still works at another job he just doesnt make enough though... So yeah... I dont wanna move to maryland and i dont wanna live with any one. But we must do what we have to do. We have a kid to think of. I love Lillian she is so cute. See what i do all day is clean, cook, chase lilly and play with her, walk... And at some point i take a shower and brush my teeth lol. My life is full of stuff i do. I may not see my friends as often as i would like but at least i have barry and lillian.
On a side note
I got to watch are you afraid of the dark yesterday and this morning! It came on yesterday on the n and i freaked! I love that show!!!!! YAY! I think its only going to be on until friday and boom its gone :(
So yeah any way lilly will be up soon so good bye